Sunday, August 15, 2010

I hurt myself...... ><"

Sometime I'll do something to hurt myself bt I don't know.... Until the moment I feel pain with tht only I realized I did something over.......

Recently, I'm going to find out my friends n trying to match my time with the activities tht they having..... even i felt very tired bt I really enjoyed to b with them.... It's really make me can relax my mind n laugh out naturally...... I told them many times, pls inform me all the yumcha session, games.... Just let me know tht even sometime I need to work bt mayb I can join when I'm free.... bt seem likes nobody is going to do tht for me..... If keep on asking u all then u all will yim ngor fan.... wt to do!!!

Mayb I'm too excited with all the things n suggested lots of activities. The most important is I'm trying to manage my off day n changing shift to attend all the parties n activities until my chef said recently I gt a little over changing shift ady n gv me a small warning bt ppl will nt appreciate with wt u did somemore they r nt willing to KNOW..... Actually, I just gt 1 purpose with wt I did, tht was I hope all my frens happy n of cz I'll b great if I seen tht...... I also realized something which is I willing to match my time with them bt ppl r nt willing to do the same thing to me....

I really dislike ppl promise me something bt they unable to do tht...... As a girl, I'm consider flexible for chatting..... When I being with my frens, nt only girl talk can chat even boy talk also ok for me... no prob..... Nw I realized something, they r so scare to tell me something honesty...... U all really scare to me until tht level? I fucking hate ppl lie me!!!!

Yesterday I damn agree with wt my sis told me, she said" mayb u expect too high from ur fren".... I answered her " definately".........
My sis is leaving kl on today n dunno when she is back again. Somemore those frens who I knew for so many years also wanna treat me like tht.... To9 i really wanna cry out loudly!!!! ><"

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

事实

事实的真相永远是残酷的......其实我不知道要从何说起才好.......

这个月将会是很难挨的一个月了,忙也不知忙得过来吗...... 之前那个王八旦chef答应会派人来下午班分担一下我们的工作..... 他不守承诺就算了,还变本加厉到把我们下午班的人不放在眼里....永远是上午班的事为先,下午班就自己吃自己吧! 我不是对上午班的人有意见,只是我对那个死印度佬给予我们不公平的对待感到愤愤不平!!! 我真的气到心里开始不平衡了.....

真的很想到别的地方透透气,散散心...... 把工作先放在一旁,不去想它,碰它!!!所以现在如果朋友约我到什么地方游玩无论是爬山也好,打球也好,什么都好, 我都会二话不说的想尽办法调配工作时间,除非是厨房很忙或有人请假,要不然大多数都没问题.........
这是为什么最近的我比以前爱找朋友喝茶聊天,有时还觉得自己变得很爱烦人家了..... 一点都不象以前的我....... 真的不想的,不知为何心里感到越来越空虚,没有安全感还深怕失去身边的朋友......

表面坚定的我可能真的表露不了我心里的的挣扎.......
整天在那儿胡思乱想的...... 哎!!!! 朋友们,就请你们体谅一下吧!!! 真的有麻烦之处就直接跟我说吧!